Thursday, December 28, 2017


Even though I'm very bad at updating here I feel like I should do a year review :)

Like always a year is both good and bad. One of the highlights was visiting my older sister and her family in Finland. It was wonderful even though I have felt more sad after it because they live so far away, I feel like we are missing out on each others lifes.
Besides Finland I made a new really good friend this year though, that makes me happy. It's not easy finding new friends as a grown-up but my younger sister sort of arranged it. My younger sister is always a good part of a year, I don't know how I would make it without her.
Our new family member, my husbands sisters child (puh) also makes me so happy! :D He is now 1 year old and I wish I could see him everyday haha!

Overall I have had a sad year. Very much anxiety. One would think everything would feel better now that I'm finally economically stable for the first time in adult life, and also have a job I really like. But anxiety doesn't work that way.
Earlier this year I started to talk to a psychologist, she was the best. I learned a lot, she made me look at my childhood a way that I have never been before and it really helped. Then she moved away in august and since then I haven't got a new one even though I should.
This year one of my favourite artists passed away. Chester Bennington in Linkin Park. He killed himself and it affected me so much. I was devastated for a week. I'm still very sad that he is gone. But I don't want it to go that far for me. And I wont let it.
2018 I need to find things that makes me feel better.

My husband and I celebrated 13 years together this December, and 4 years as married. :D I'm so glad to have him in my life. He is like a lifeboat that keeps my safe and never let's me drift away. <3 

This is the stuff I wanted to accomplish the year of 2017:
-  Visit London ( )  I visited my sister in Finland instead which I'm very happy about it! Maybe there will be a trip to London in 2018 but it's not something I will plan now.
-  Visit a spa ( ) I almost made it this year! I have giftcard, haha!
-  Go bowling more! (/) I guess I did it more than I ususally do. But not as much as I wanted!
- Talk less to my mom. (x) I nailed this. I haven't talked to her since 23 december 2016 and that has been so good for me. Nowadays there is noone telling me that I'm a stupid and worthless person.

Hair of 2017

This is the stuff I want to accomplish the year of 2018:

- Try to do more yoga. I'm falling behind in my workouts because I'm so tired which affects my endometrios badly. Maybe instead of a rough workout I could try to to yoga the days I feel weary ( )
- Use that spagiftcard! ( )
- Be with family more. Sometimes when Mattias visits his family I'm to scared to go with. I'm scared that they will ask questions about my anxiety when I can't pretend to be happy. But I like going there. So I should remember that ( )
- Most important, use the money I now have on more fun stuff I really enjoy, visit the movies, go on a cruise, maybe go to Finland again.  ( )

Best book this year: On the Island - Tracey Garvis Grace
Best movie this year: Jumanji, welcome to the jungle

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

3 outfits

This entry will be 3 outfits I have been wearing recently :) 

My newest dress :) From Riotlab. I fell in love with the cats of course and I really like the skaterstyle dresses. 

This dress I bought last halloween from HM. I haven't been wearing so much before, it used to have long sleeves. Since I cut them off I have been wearing it a lot :D 

I bought this dress with my birthdaygiftcard from EMP :D It's one of my most precious clothings, haha. 
The print is so so pretty!

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Hello halloween

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 These two fellas are my newest addition to our home :D I couldn't resist them! 
I expecially love the bat.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Things that makes me happy

I founds this entry in my drafts but I hadn't finished it yet. Seemed like a good idea to finish it. I think it's healthy to find joy in the little things in life as well. :)

Things that makes me happy

- When one of the cats falls asleep in my lap and after a while does this happy jawn and start to purr.

- Waking up at 9 a day free from work with nothing planned but reading and watching movies the whole day.

-  After a workout, having also just cleaned the apartment, sitting down with a huge glass of coca-cola, with ice and a straw in!

- Going to the cinema, order the largest popcorn and watching a movie you just know will be soooo gooood.

- Waking up in the niddle of the night just to move closer to my husband and fall asleep again.

- A freshly made bed and a whole hour of reading before it's time to sleep.

- The first day in december.When christmas is everywhere. Hopefully a little snow as well.

Feel free to do your own list :D In the comments or in your blog!

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Birthday gifts

Hello :D
I just wanted to show my amazing gifts I have been getting for my birthday. 
It was 5th september but because people are so busy I have been celebrated a little here and there after that. 

Look at these plates! Actually I'm scared to put something on them. I think I just will use them as decorations. 

Mushu and Cricket <3 
And of course I can't WAIT to do this puzzle I got from my sister. Oh my! It's larp in a few days but after that I will jump on this. So excited! 

I bought this fox as a gift for myself, what should I name it?

Other things I got was a new computer monitor and a huge giftcard for my favourite clothingstore emp-shop. I already ordered some dresses but they haven't arrived yet. Stay tuned ;) 

Here are some recent outfits :) 

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Finally some outfits!

Yes, it's true! I have actually managed to take enough outfitphotos to make a whole entry about it! *applauses myself*

I have had a very long period of anxiety when it comes to clothes, so it isn't until recently I have felt the joy in dressing up again, which makes it more fun to take outfitpictures as well :D

A few days ago I looked through my old blog I had between 2010-2012 
And it was so much fun too see all the my outfits and what I liked back then! 
So I will definitly try to take more outfitpictures now so in a few years again I can look back and look at these :) 

Saturday, September 2, 2017

The darkling tag

I was tagged by MsMisantropia and it is indeed time for me to show some apperance on my blog so :'D

What is your favourite candle scent? I always buy scented candles at IKEA and my favourite is apple!
Do you have a favourite book? Anne of green gables will always have a special place in my heart.
Are you a tea or coffee person? Neither.
What is your favourite perfume/cologne? Britney Spears Fantasy. It smells absolutely fabolous!
Do you have a celebrity crush? Well, I guess Amy Lee still after all these years. :) But right now I have huge crush on Callie Torres in Grey's Anatomy.
If you could change your name to a stereotypical 90s/2000s gothy name, what would it be? Never have I ever heard of such a gothic name, haha! My blogname Lesthi I chose as my "webname" already in 2004 though and I still really like it. It's like a female version of Lestat was my thoughts back then :P
What are your top three tips for surviving hot weather while black clad? Not going out? Heh.
What song always makes you happy (doesn’t have to be a goth band?) Such a night with Elvis Presley.
Are you active in the arts (eg. Play an instrument, paint, write, etc)? No not really right now. To lazy and angsty.
What is your number one non-gothy hobby? What is a gothy hobby even? I like couple dance and I guess that's not so gothy O.o

Thought Provokers:
If you could be a supernatural creature, what would it be and why? Mermaid. I love mermaids. I'm sure that somewhere deep in the sea there are a beautiful place for mermaids. I think that have always imagined a mermaid life to be less stressful than this life or something. :'D
What horror monster-bases super power would you have? Can I simply choose to be a waterbender while being a mermaid? xD
Do you feel confident or comfortable interacting with other Goths or gothy people (online or irl)? Why or why not? Hmm. I guess I actually feel that I'm not goth enough. I wouldn't even call myself a goth right now. But if people are kind and not judgy I never have a problem.
Is there something you wish there was more of in your subculture? Haven't thought about it.
Care to share an embarrassing story related to your “darkliness”? The most embarrasing part must be how my eyebrows looked like in my most gothy days! Haha!

That megalong eyebrows
How are you at DIY? I would say good :D

Confessional (aka True or False):
I love watching cheese romance films. TRUE!
I ALWAYS remember to wash off my makeup at night. Never wear makeup so yes? :'D
I sleep with plushies. True!
I wear non-black pyjamas most nights. True. I wear whatever comfortable.
I think Andrew Eldrich is overrated. Who :P
I don’t like vampires. False.
I don’t like clubs. I don't know, I don't think I ever been to one.
I don’t enjoy graveyards. True
Blood makes me queasy. False
I’d sooner faint than pet a spider. False
I don’t like haunted houses. False.
I’ve never read Dracula. True! I have it but haven't read it yet D:
I think “Bela Lugosi’s Dead” is a long and boring song. I only heard CHVRCHES version and yeah it's quite boring.

I'm now supposed to tag 3 people and I hope they haven't already been tagged :) Sarah, CrimsonAnna and Phantomcat